{experimenting with new materials!}

A BUNCH of new stuff I'm experimenting with!

1. Puffy Paint. I was wandering through Wal-Mart the other day, and saw the little bottles of puffy paint. I thought, "Why not play with these?" as they're only $1 each. Grabbed a black and white and have been doodling around things with 'em since. Near everything I've touched since then has gotten the puffy paint treatment.

2. Gems and Rhinestones. I finished reading the Crafty Chica's first book, Waking Up in the Land of Glitter last week, and had a sudden hankering to grab some gems and glue 'em down. What fun they are!

3. GLITTER. See above. Also, there's this invention called a Glue Pen; holy CRAP do I love this thing! I have the Martha Stewart ballpoint one, and daaaamnn. I'm gathering coupons to get the other tips at Michael's later this week!

4. Fiber Paste. I think I've posted about this before, but I decided to try it out on paper. It's SO COOL. Feels like (and acts like) rough watercolor paper.

What new things have you tried? Once you throw the "rules" out the window, there really are amazing new discoveries out there for your favorite craft products.

{into the unknown without a map}


Ever get an idea that grabs hold and doesn’t let go? This was one of those!

I’ve been carrying my nice big binder with me to coffee shops to work on workshops and goal-making and notes that pour from my head, and after some papers spilled from it the other day (scattering across the parking lot!), realized I might need a different bag as my purse was too small to fit much else.

(That, and my new journal doesn’t fit in my purse, either!)

I remembered this olive messenger bag I had and hoped it had made it in the move. I hopped on a chair and pulled down my box of bags - the eight that remain from a collection of at least seventy - cheering when I pulled it free.

My plan hinged on dying pieces of muslin with various inks and sprays, my studio resembling a mad scientist's workspace. A bowl of water and Liquitex Ink!, paper towels blotting Adirondack ink, the faint shimmer of glimmer mist. I laid down some stencils and sprayed directly onto the muslin with a light blue glimmer mist as I’d done before in class, then added in some darker blue Adirondack ink.

Spritz and spray and inky fingers. Laughter and true experimentation. Spreading out into a new world.

While those dried, I pulled out some little alphabet stamps and a pad of Staz On black ink and started writing, one letter at a time. Is it normal for ink to smell that bad? Or is it because the inkpad, brand new and pristine, lived for three years in my mother’s craft tote?


This was just after writing yesterday’s long post - and thank you for all your wonderful comments, emails, and chats; I am working through them! - so all that was on my mind, influencing the words I stamped.

While running errands, my eye was caught by a dark swirl of multi-colored thread that spun together primary colors and a bit of black. I re-thread my sewing machine and sewed together the two sides of my shapes - a heart and wings. I know it is often overdone and is everywhere, but I don’t care - I still love drawing it, playing around, changing the wing shapes. Perhaps that’s why it’s done all the time!

Apply to bag, add buttons, and...magic!

Now my journal and binder can stay safe inside my bag while I wander around town, writing and thinking and wishing and dreaming...



{playing catch-up (Reverb 16-19)}

Ack! I have been writing essays, but at odd times or a day late, and then go to sleep without posting! So I decided to post all of them in one big catch-up post in an effort to get back on track. I really, really want to complete them all (even the one I passed on!) as a personal challenge and then achievement.

Last night, while watching a movie, I started doodling. And then remembered a little doodle I'd done on a Points of Two page and started drawing. I found myself asking, "Why not do little illustrations for your back-log of #Reverb10 essays?"

"Because you're not good at little illustrations like this!" my critic answered.

I shrugged. "So?"

"Fine, fine! Do whatever! But I reserve the right to tell you I told you so when people hate them!" roared the critic.

So I ignored him. I liked making little illustrations! And I want to make more!

All these were made with simple tools: Intense pencils, Caran D'Arch water-soluble crayons, & a water brush. Just a spot of fun on a cool winter night.

Click below to read the four essays from this week. I'll be posting for today's prompt tonight!

♥ samie kira



Friendship. How has a friend changed you or your perspective on the world this year? Was this change gradual, or a sudden burst?

(I almost decided not to post this, but then remembered I wanted a nice archive of this month of reflection.)

Dear Jun,

I think it’s a testament to our friendship that it survived five years of you being halfway around the world, living on an island nation (despite your fear of large bodies of water; are you sure Lake Biwa didn’t get to you?). I think it is also worth mentioning that we met back when meeting random people from the internet was still in it’s infancy - that is, people were doing it, but it wasn’t as mainstream as it’s become. Now, you sign up for Meetup groups or find dates through websites, and what I’m saying is that it makes our sideways meeting through a friend’s blog rather mundane in comparison.

Alas, it happened.

I always considered my friendship with you and your sister as being a bit equal, since you’re twins and all, and I never saw either of you, before traveling to Japan, without the other. I think you and Meg are adorable when together; in fact, for many years, I thought together, you both made one complete, hilarious person.

Hilarious, manga-loving, Japan-obsessed, fangirl.

I digress. I could sit here and write pages as to how my friendship with the pair of you has changed my life, but I’m working on reflecting this year. My longer piece, “How I Survived the T Twins,” will have to be completed at a later date.

I was insanely excited about you moving closer to me. You’d always been hours and hours or a 13-hour-plane-ride away, so the notion I could not only get to your apartment in an acceptable length of time (usually one cycle through a CD), but return the same day without spending most of my time in a car or on a plane made me giddy.

But this year, in this year, we became so close! You opened your home to me so I could escape the insanity and stress of my own home, and never made me feel bad for doing so. We went to all sorts of events and places, bantered enough to scare at least one member of the meetup group, and introduced me to said meetup group, as well as some of your JET friends.

I used to think I wasn’t worthy of a close friendship set on equal grounds. My best friend from high school always held someone else above me on the hierarchy, tilting our relationship off-balance. And during college, I went through a pretty traumatic friendship ending that left me feeling vulnerable.

You never got angry at me when I said I needed to stop or go home because I wasn’t feeling well. And I love that we can just sit there and do our own things - both on the computer with the TV in the background, comfortable with silence, with each others’ presence. I think, for the first time, I felt completely accepted for who I am, flaws and all.

This new stage in our friendship, created during this year, feels like my first adult friendship. We’re both young women (even though today’s your birthday and you may not agree with me!), single, with our nerdy habits and fannish speak and love of shipping on TV shows, etc. But above that - we can do things on our own. Your apartment became a haven of acceptance, laughter, and adventure, and knowing I could run there after a particularly difficult time just...I used to not have anywhere to go. That’s no longer the truth.

The first time you trusted me with a key to your place, I felt so honored, loved, and trusted. Not only have I discovered a new level of friendship through you, but have begun to regain my self-esteem. There’s so much to be recovered when someone simply accepts you.

Even beyond that - I know I can pick up the phone and call you and it’s like we never parted each other’s company. I will always support you and know you’re in my corner!

For the first time in my life, I feel worthy of friendship and love and all that’s inside of me.

Thank you for giving that all back to me, and for so, so much more.



not all lessons

Lesson Learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward?

That I can do it.

A few years ago, I was told by a chiropractor that, according to my x-rays, I’m missing cartilage between my last vertebrae and my tailbone. It helped explain my never-ending lower back pain, my leg pain, and hosts of other things, but also acted as a warning - no sitting in one position for longer than an hour, or driving for more than 45. Which sucks, yes, because that means I have to have someone else with me in the car for long trips (and be willing to let them drive my car!).

I never went on road trips, and while I’d push myself to be the driver for days spent out and about with friends, I often paid for it the next day.

So when it came to discussing our cross-country drive to Arizona, I was scared. My brain began to whirl through all the bad things that were sure to happen. After an hour, wouldn’t I feel bad? What about after two? I was slated to drive at least three each day - what would happen then?

But I wanted to move so badly, needed that cleansing of a new life found in the wild west, that I was ready to put on a tough face and deal with it.

There is a difference between believing you can do something and actually doing it.

After the first day, I was a bit sore. And on the second, I had that moment of realization that I could do it. Sure, I had a bit of pain, but here I was, driving across the country, driving three or four hours a day. Now that isn’t much when you’re driving, I’m sure; my father made it in two and a half days and drove half the time. But to me, who was previously told it would be a bad idea, getting past that one hour or even the two hour mark was revolutionary.

No longer limited by what I thought I could do (versus what I really could), the world opened up to me. The drive to Los Angeles is about six hours - could I make it there? What about Las Vegas? San Diego? Texas? Mexico? I’m not dependant on train schedules or others to get me to the places I want to visit. I don’t have to hope for the money for a plane ticket and try to figure out the logistics once landing.

I’ve spent the last six years becoming comfortable with my limits. I never considered pushing against them to see how far I could really go, paralyzed by the fear of pain.

And now? I think I’ve learned my lesson.


Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it?

What I want to try next year is something very near and dear to me, important and central, and yet, I am filled with such apprehension about sharing it, I may never even post this. I don’t want to censor myself, though, and don’t know what to do. What if a truth is misinterpreted? Is it better, then, to simply not share it?

Since I don’t know and can accept that, I shall share what I am comfortable with revealing.

I want to try bring more sacredness and tradition into my life in the coming year.

I’ve always been fascinated with the traditions of other cultures, in those thousand-year practices that come naturally to people from countries and cultures more developed than my own. When searching through my own past, I was dejected to find there isn’t much; as a third-generation American (my maternal great-grandparents came here from Germany), there isn’t much left from our roots past a few odd words and insults in a foreign tongue. The only point of interest is my paternal great-grandmother, who was a squaw of the Blackfoot tribe. But I’ve never gone as far as I’d like with such studies since I’m mostly white, and am afraid of rejection.

I have participated in several Japanese traditions, from sitting zazen at a Zen Buddhist temple to doing traditional folk dancing - it is my “adopted” culture (and ironically, I feel more comfortable with that than with possible peoples from the Blackfoot tribe!). I cannot get enough of the magic of Japanese culture, but while I love observing some of their traditions, I can’t get behind all of them. I need my own.

This year had me going out hiking and biking more. There is a majesty to nature and the simple act of traveling through it, a calming of the mind that allows clearer thought and inspiration to strike. Instead of waking to the computer, checking my email, etc, I want to wake to the sun rising, to sitting outside with a hot mug of tea in my hands. I want to light candles or incense and pray before I create.

While I have discovered more wonder in the world this year, I know there is more out there just waiting to be discovered, and I want to try to embrace it.

As to what I tried this year? I tried to get past feelings of jealousy by pouring as much love into the world as I could. When I felt bad that other people received more comments on blog posts than me, I decided to comment as much as I could. When I saw others teaching, I developed new classes. I promoted the work of friends and those who I felt were giving something of great value to the world. All the love and attention I wanted I gave out.

I think that’s only a part. I took all the negativity I experienced and felt and put out positivity. When faced with harsh realities, I became open and loving. Now, I won’t say I did this every time - I’m far from perfect - but it was a noble goal I wanted to strive for, and isn’t that the best anyone can ask of you?

healing touch

Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?

There were a few things this year that could fit this prompt. I like lists, so here I go!

1. Friendships.

I answered one of the major ones in a previous essay, so I’m not going to re-hash something I’ve already written about (plus, it’ll make me cry again!). I think if the first had not happened, I wouldn’t have been able to truly open up to people this year, and then, think of all the gifts I would have missed! My friendships, both old and new, have begun to bloom in an amazing kaleidoscope of colors; I now know there is always someone to call or message or poke no matter what the occasion - happy or sad. And because of this blooming, I want to celebrate them more, give them the strength and love they’ve given me. I think, then, that I’m really growing up.

And about damn time. I’m at that age where I no longer want my birthday to be in sight!

(Side-note on friendship: If you live in the Phoenix, AZ area, come on down to Changing Hands bookstore tomorrow night at 6pm, where Dawn Sokol will be singing copies of her bookDoodle Diary: Art Journaling for Girls.” It’s such a fun little book, and Dawn’s an amazing, funny, creative gal!)

2. Losing my job.

This might sound weird - how can losing a job heal a person? Don’t people get depressed when this happens?

A long time ago, I worked at Paper Source. I loved that job, and it’s there that I heard the names Teesha Moore and Anahata Katkin - two names that completely changed the trajectory of my entire life. I didn’t stay on, and when that happened, despite how difficult that choice was, I now know it all happened for a reason.

By the time I lost my job in January, I was working too many hours for my body to handle, and while I had begun to heal when working a nice, steady 25 hours a week, pushing it past 30 started doing more damage than good. I’d spend days in bed, was always cranky, and didn’t do much art at all. My creative output was 15% of what it is now.

And looking back, I can see being let go was a blessing. I’m more creative than ever, am living in a different state, and really have no complaints! In the new year, my mother is planning on getting a job - and I know I can just keep doing what I’ve been doing and be absolutely fine.

In fact, I have so many ideas, it’s getting crowded in my head! If only I had the energy to do everything - but then, if I did, I wouldn’t sleep!

3. Support Groups

I can’t say much, by the nature of the organization, but going to Al-Anon continues to be an amazing process. Honestly, I think everyone should go through the twelve steps, if only for personal development.

(For those who don’t know - Al-Anon is the support group for family and friends of someone with an addiction. We work the same twelve steps as those in other anonymous groups and support one another in much the same way.)

Yes, we often cry, but we also laugh and chat and hold each others’ hands. There are people from ALL walks of life there, looking for someone who simply understands what they’re going through. I started attending meetings on a weekly basis around March of this year, and while things can still catch me unaware, I have a much better way to handle and deal with not only the addiction, but anything in my life. There are cracks that are on their way to mending.

As for next year, I feel silly predicting or asking for certain aspects of myself to be healed. I know I’m on a path, but I’m not the one in control, not really. There is that above that nudges me in the right direction, gives me clues as to where I should be going. And I feel that They know better than I where I need to be healed and how that will happen.

My body is always my primary area that needs healing. But on the other hand, I don’t think I’d be doing what I’m doing - creating art, writing, and teaching - if I were perfectly healthy. Or if I was, it wouldn’t be the same. My physical shortcomings influence not only how my work turns out, but the methods I employ to create, and I love it all.

Except on bad flair up days. But I get through those on faith and love, and channel it all into my work.

Can I ask for others to be healed instead? While I have my issues and cracks and steaming fissures in my body and mind, I have also constructed bridges and pathways to help me get through life with a smile on my face. I feel as if I’ve been reborn with this move and the creative explosion that happened in the first few weeks, so I’d love to ask for others in my life to be healed instead of me.

And if I can have a hand in any of it, I’d consider myself eternally blessed. Getting letters and emails about how I’ve helped someone, how I turned them onto art journaling or painting or being creative, makes me cry every single time. I print them and keep them close to my heart and know we all have something to offer, no matter the circumstances of our lives.

{start somewhere easy (reverb10 - 6)}

log cabin pencil case

December 6 – Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

How fortuitous that this is today’s prompt! And here I was, thinking I’d have to do two posts today or tomorrow so I could show my pretty new quilted pencil case!

I have to admit, I pushed against the tide of quilting for a long time. I thought it was all bland colors and squares or pinwheels or other boring things. While I’ve been sewing since I was about thirteen, eventually learning how to create my own patterns (read: made costumes for Anime conventions; yes, I am that nerd!), quilting felt like a hobby for moms and grandmothers, not me!

Yes, I’ve attempted it over the years. When I first started making pieces of mixed-media, I quilted together some cute fabrics I found to be the front of a messenger bag I made, and the experience wasn’t...easy.

Okay, everything came out kinda crooked. How was I to know there’s a trick to doing all this? And that it’s actually simpler than I was making it?

So, I left quilting for others and went on making the art I liked making. And then, when I finally figured out how to freestyle stitch with my sewing machine (which is so easy, guys - get a darning foot, drop those feed dogs, and start doodling!), I decided I wanted to maybe do a little more with the awesome fabric I was compelled to buy.

I expressed this to the new shop owner of my favorite local quilting store, and she laughed. Not in a bad way - in a, “Oh, sweetie, how wrong you are!” kind of way. I can’t remember the name of the book she pulled from a shelf for me to page through, but I have to admit - it completely changed the way I look at quilting.

I can make up patterns? Ignore the rules? Make them small? Who knew!

log cabin pencil case (detail)

(Everyone else, apparently!)

I immediately came home and started incorporating my art into art quilts, using the fabric as a frame for the pieces I’d started creating on loose canvas.

And then, at the library a few weeks ago, I picked up a book on cute projects to be done with smaller squares.

Yesterday, I thought, “Hey, why not try something?”

Start small, I told myself. Start somewhere easy. I began piecing together a Log Cabin square by cutting fabric into strips of varying widths. I then started going around in a square, side by side, adding in bits of salvage here and there, until I had a rectangle!

And then, I stitched all over it. Just wild doodles and those lines going all over the place I’ve admired on so many pieces I’ve seen in the art community online. Got my bobbin all gucked up because, while I didn’t add any bias tape around the edges, I forgot to put some muslin on the other side of the thin batting I was using. Changed thread colors halfway through for the bobbin. Broke all those rules I thought I had to follow.

But when I held that finished pencil case in my hand, I was amazed. Did I really make this? Had I figured things out, sewn, ironed, and fought with thread to come out the other side with something I actually liked?

Short answer: Yes.

log cabin pencil case

I’m a pretty lucky woman. I get to fill my days with art and creativity, crafting ideas in my head into a tangible reality. And I love it. In fact, I love it so much, I often feel guilty when I’m still in my pajamas on a Tuesday afternoon when most people are at work. But I wouldn’t trade it for anything. The issue, then, of finding time to make something in the future isn’t really a problem.

I would, however, like to be able to stretch my own canvas. Yes. While I’m pretty good at picking things up easily, that is one area where I’ve always dreamed but never done. Mostly because I’m afraid of it.

Then again, quilting was pretty scary up until about this morning, so who knows what the future really holds!


PS. I'm going to work on answering comments tomorrow morning instead of tonight, as my pup is giving me a death glare and keeps sighing...yeah, he wants to go to bed!

{the experiments journal #3: the finished big canvas & fabric edging for a journal page!}

I love that I'm using these videos as a visual documentation of many of my experiments. I get an idea, thinking it out, and then film me trying it out. These are not perfect, polished bits -- they're the real deal, the raw creativity that happens almost every day. 

*Disclaimer: My actual sewing for journals, etc, is much, much neater! 

I added the blue fabric patch after the video was over. Here's a few lovely glamor shots. 

experiments journal #3 - fabric edging for a journal page

experiments journal #3 - fabric edging for a journal page

experiments journal #3 - fabric edging for a journal page

I also sipped a glass of wine while admiring my finished painting! It's the largest I've ever done, and am already thinking about my next one!

"out to the desert"

The colors are much richer/diverse than in the photo. I'm still working out how PS5 works on a PC (oh, how I miss my Mac!). 

"out to the desert" detail

And I love this detail shot, how the writing is coming through the layers! Oh, I just love what I've managed to create! This, too, is available. 

Tomorrow is a full day full of friendship, as is Thursday! I'm a lucky woman to be meeting with such fun and creative ladies over the next 2 weeks!

{ spring is a breath of fresh air }

all ready to go!

FINALLY! The weather has turned nice and I've packed everything into my nifty cute Amy Butler tote and moved out into the grass and warm spring sunlight. It was like a breath of fresh air; months and months of staying inside, of the cold and the snow and layers and layers of sweaters, I was finally able to throw on a tank top, grab my supplies, and get OUT!

yay! nice out to spray paint!

The best part is that I can start using spray paint again. I tried it once over the winter and OH MY, I couldn't breathe in the studio for HOURS...I had to run away and wait for the smell to clear out. O.o I don't have a mask or area to really work with it indoors, so I've been using paint with my stencils. No more!

I have a roll of wallpaper I grabbed for $3 at Big Lots, and used that to protect the grass from the spray. I plan on using it for awhile, then cutting it up for scrap papers to use in my journal....except it rained today and I left it under the table! Oops! Good thing there's a whole roll of it!

But I DID find out many of my paints are "missing" in the garage. We've been collecting things to sell this summer in a mega we're-about-to-move garage sale, so there is just STUFF out there in piles, and I can't even BEGIN to start looking for stuff. I guess that means a trip to Wal-Mart is in order...I can't survive on just 3 colors (plus black and white)!

I also grabbed some doilies from Jo Anne Fabrics to use...it's AWESOME! The patterns are amazing. Next, I'm going to drop the $4 for a sheet of die cut scrapbooking paper I like -- that's what's up there in the picture. They're fun and cheap stencils in comparison to the larger ones you'll find at craft stores. There aren't many available just yet, but they're great for general backgrounds and layering.

{ Check out this post and this tutorial if you've never worked with spray paint in your journal. }

first nice day of spring!

While out, I saw this little pad of thick, thick vellum for, like, $2, and thought, "Wow, that'd be great to use to practice drawing girls' faces." Because that's what I enjoy the most right now...drawing these faces. Yes, everyone's doing it, and I should do something original, but I LIKE doing this. I wire-bound it at the top and am practicing by drawing my co-workers during breaks. Hehe. I'm not all that good at drawing specific people...but that's what practice is for, right? Plus, the pad's a great mini-journal for when you don't want to carry a big bag around. Like on bright summer days!

I KNOW I owe y'all a video...it's on my laptop waiting to be edited. But my mouse has gone, so I'm turning my broken little laptop into a desktop so I CAN edit it. GRR!! I LOVE editing and really want to get this video out...I think you'll like it!


Sunday Night Thoughts:

  • I want to teach a class online so badly. I want to teach it and use Flickr and bring people together and make them happy and creative.
  • I wish it were NaNoWriMo time already because I have a book idea in mind and want to make it real.
  • I wish my soldering iron wasn't old and wobbly because it makes it very hard to finish pretty glass jewelry.
  • I want the Bears to win!
  • I wish I knew how to paint right. All my people are flat -- I need to figure out how to do shading.
  • I wish I didn't feel so invisible. That I wasn't scared to email these "popular" people because of one less-than-good experience. I wish I was worthy of being asked to do things -- art, articles, or such -- because of my talent.
  • I wish I weren't so petrified of the second issue of Page by Page not being as good as the first that I'd get off my butt and actually work on it.
  • I wish I weren't so insecure.

. .

I had planned on posting a supply list today, but my brother had my camera, and instead of coming home when he said he would, he stayed out all day. So, I grabbed some new paint and copper metal tape, and began experimenting with an old soldering iron. This thing is OLD! The tip is crooked and wobbly and I can't use ANY pressure because I'm afraid the thing's going to fall off/out and burn me!

Rachel Jackson has a workshop in the newest issue of Somerset Workshop. OMG. If you haven't seen her work, check out this issue! It's BEAUTIFUL and inspiring and has to be up there as a favorite. I spent Saturday in a tizzy because she uses emulsion paint samples and, as an American, had NO IDEA what that was. I came to find out that you can't find it here in the US -- if you're wondering, gouche is the closest thing we've got over here! Anyway, I created some designs for pendants after reading her workshops and, hopefully, will get a new soldering iron soon to finish them!

Tonight finds me pleasantly tired from a bout of softball catch, a dip in the pool, and some jewelry exploration. My journal lays open on my legs. I'm going to try my hand at some folk-art inspired doodles and maybe try to write out some quandaries in my head. Like how I'm going to afford a nice, new iron!